When I think about treating myself and self care, to me that always means, looking after what I need in my life. To some it may be more reading, less social media for example, but to me it varies from month to month. I try to give myself a few days a month to just gather myself, and sometimes that does mean not posting much on social media, but it could also mean that I post a lot on my stories because that's what I want to do, not because I feel like I have to.
Lately, I've needed those self care days more often than not. How do I know this? Well, that's easy, having a flu for about 5 days (and still going strong) will basically make the point and it made me realise rather quickly, that I have been neglecting... me. For instance, today is #nationalbakingday and yours truly posted nothing. Not because I didn't have anything to post but rather because, I simply didn't want to. That to me is a way of understanding what self care is, by not feeding into the imaginary pressure of social media, that one day of not posting will result in me losing about 10 followers. Some days it bothers me and makes me feel as though I am not trying hard enough but the days where I choose what I want to do, those are the good days, the days where the pressure and guilt dissipate and I just continue doing me.
I started pilates recently and it has become a part of my self care journey. I used to feel so guilty about not going to the gym, not working out, but exercising my body in a different way made me feel more connected and stronger and soon enough I was looking forward to those early morning pilates classes. I went from beginners to intermediate after 4 lessons (I had also never done reformer pilates before this so it seemed like an accomplishment) and that feeling of succeeding in something I had never done before was electric and it's now something I look forward to every week.
I didn't intend for this post to be as introspective as it has clearly become, but even so I am glad to be writing this. I know I am not the only one who gets clouded by what everyone else needs, and by the end of the day you ask yourself what have you achieved, and it seems like nothing. Those days aren't the good ones, but when that does happen, choose another day where you can focus on yourself and do what YOU feel like doing, even if it is a pilates/yoga/gym class at 9am. If that makes you feel good and like you have achieved something, then by all means-DO IT and don't apologise for taking care of you.
I treated my mother and myself to these amazing scones yesterday, which I was anxiously waiting to post, so here is the recipe! I removed the initial amount of bicarbonate of soda entirely as I found the flavour to be ver over powering the first time I made it, but if you feel like you want to add more than I did, then consider only 1 tsp. This dough is the lightest scone dough ever, and it is almost impossible to flop in the oven.
Recipe: Lemon scones
Add the flour, sugar, baking powder, bicarbonate of soda and salt together and mix well. Add small chunks of butter to the dry mix and with your fingers crumb the mixture with the butter until the white colour now looks like a pale yellow and there aren't big butter chunks left over.
Whisk the sour cream, heavy cream, egg, caramel essence, juice and zest together.
Slowly add to the dry ingredients in a mixer until the dough has come together and is very soft, almost sticky.
Turn onto a dry floured surface and knead for about 30 seconds.
Make the dough flat, in a circle about 1-2cm thick and using a round cookie cutter, cut out the rounds, and place of a large tray on parchment paper.
Using another egg, wet the tops of the scones with the egg wash and drizzle with some sugar to get that lovely crust look.
Bake for 18 minutes, once the top are browned, you can remove them from them oven.